Hi, I started suffering severe psychic attacks in the Fall of 2008 until now. In Jan. 2011 I met Judith Moore, author of "Song of Freedom, my Journey from the Abyss." Judith was frequently kidnapped as a child and tortured by the Covert US Government. When I met her, I did a session and learned that I had streaming data in my head; Judith and the Arcturians removed the data. Judith told me I had to deprogram myself. I asked her what that meant. She said to read her book. That's when I learned that I too had been kidnapped, tortured, and programmed as a child in Michigan. I've had memories where they used electrocution on me. They implanted Delta Death Codes: 5133867 is one of them. I've been deprogramming almost 24/7 since Fall of 2008. I've had some relief once I learned about Judith's info. I just learned about ES at the end of Sept. 2012 I have read much of your info; I create the 12 D shield daily and am reading the blogs. I live in Austin, TX. What I've learned is that when the government programmed me, they created multiple personalities. I've deprogrammed many of these parts; I like to call them Deltas, however, there is still more. Since Lisa and the ES community have incredible insights to MC, would you consider the programmed personalities as negative ego? If so, how can I heal/reprogram them? Lisa says we have to heal the negative ego, but I seem to have a big programmed negative ego...or is my negative ego separate from the programmed personalities? I have been bombarded everyday and am at my wits end. I haven't been able to find a job in over 2 years; I'm divorced and fighting for custody of my 2 children. I've been living off my IRA's and savings, and am running on fumes. I have an MBA in International Management. I am an empath and feel everyone's junk and am constantly clearing.
I have spoken to Judith many times, but she doesn't "Coach" people. If a Delta learns they have been programmed, some automatically commit suicide. I'm beyond that point. Please help. Thank you.