Dear Lisa,
Thank you for all your work and for your newsletters. Last week my husband said he felt like he was "possessed" although he says he doesn't believe in this. He has sequestered himself in his study for the last three weeks. He comes out when I'm not at home. He is afraid he will shout at me and this makes me sick when he does.
I feel I am in a desperate situation. I am on disability from Lyme Disease and my husband has been out of work for 9-months, and he is home all the time. I feel like my life force is getting sucked out of me. He has been depressed and rageful during our 9-year-marriage and I am now just beginning to regain some health.
I constantly think of leaving, but have no idea how I'd support myself. I try to leave the house as much as possible and go to meditate most days on top of one of the Blue Ridge Mountains near my home in Western, NC. For decades, I have had a strong urge to go at night on walks in the woods or in the mountains. I have dreams of a Black Panther being with me, and wonder if it's the black panther that craves this.
I ask that the 12 D shield surround me. Probably not often enough. I should write myself a note. It would be wonderful if you had a chance to write back and let me know if I could ask you about my situation. I don't know if you can "feel things out" on my end.